In This Moment’s Chris Howorth recently revealed that he had been diagnosed with acute arthritis in his neck and shoulders. Now, in a new interview with KBAT 99.9, he has opened up about his struggles with opiate addiction, which came as a result of his pain.
Here’s what he said:
“I went through a period starting in probably 2008 on tour where I started to dabble with opiates, just because of the pain in my neck. I would take one to help me with the pain after the show, and as everyone knows, one turns into two. And I started taking them before the show, ’cause it would make me have a better show. And that went on for probably about three years, and I think I did a lot of overreaching and overdoing it and I was masking, you know, what was going on.
And I’ve been clean now for about two years. And all the reality of what I’ve been doing to it came to a head over this break. And I had to basically go, ‘Oh my God I can’t even turn my head any direction at all. What am I gonna do?’ And went in to specialists and stuff, and I’ve been going through a lot of therapy and medications.
And I actually now have… compared to a normal person, it’s shockingly not a lot of range of movement, but compared to what I was, it’s actually really pretty good. So,I’m in a good spot right now… But I’m never gonna be able to do what I did before, whipping the dreads and cranking my neck. I have to kind of relearn how to perform on stage.”
He also added:
“It’s really dangerous and they’re so addictive and they feel really good, you know? They feel really good. They make you not feel that pain, but the problem is they’re highly addictive and once you take one, you feel better.
After taking one for a few days, one doesn’t make you feel better anymore, and then you need two, and then you need three. And there comes a point when you’re, like, ‘Oh, man. I can’t take this many.’ So you try not to take ’em anymore, and then you get physically sick—you feel like nauseous and your legs ache and you’re in this weird pain.
And the only thing that makes that go away is taking your opiates again. So it’s not even about the pain anymore; it’s about not feeling sick. It’s a horrible thing, man, and a lot of people are dealing with it.
And I’m here to say you can stop, and you can stop on your own; you don’t have to go into rehab. You just have to get real with yourself and do it. I know it’s really hard, so I’m not trying to make it seem easy. It’s been hard for me.”
“I mean every time we’d go on tour, I’d have to figure out a way to get enough pills to able to do the tour. And it’s a horrible way to live. It’s much better now. It’s a bummer that I did so much damage over the years and it caught up with me in this way and affected my band and our career a little bit here. It’s just a lesson, you know?”