Greg Puciato (The Dillinger Escape Plan) To Release New Book “Separate The Dawn”

Greg Puciato (The Dillinger Escape Plan, The Black Queen) will be releasing his first book, “Separate The Dawn,” on February 12 via Federal Prisoner. The 226 page book will feature a collection of poetry, photography, etc. that was written and taken during The Dillinger Escape Plan’s final year and a half. A limited edition hardcover version can be pre-ordered HERE.

Puciato commented:

“This is the heaviest and most brutal, but ultimately positive and necessary piece, in a series of thematically connected output for me, during what I now see as a long transitional arc, of realization, processing, shedding, accepting, and then finally coming out of the other side into a different place. A walk through a broken mirror.

Chronologically this goes after ‘Dissociation,’ and before ‘Infinite Games.’ It’s also a surprising and welcome reconnection with a medium that was my first creative love, even before music, and an equally surprising fascination with a new one.

I guess it’s essentially my first (and maybe only) solo release. Thanks to everyone who picks this up, for continuing to encourage me to keep creating with zero regard for parameters of gene or medium. Also, Lebron James is not greater than Michael Jordan.”

He also discussed the book further with Revolver and said he originally had no intentions of releasing a book and that he was thinking of using the title for a “violent solo album.” He added:

“…Thematically, this goes in between the Dillinger record and Black Queen, which sounds insane, but I really do care that this chronology is in place. The one thing I don’t want, is for people to read this and think this is me currently, because that time period was so intense.

There’s a lot of stuff in there that I read now and think, “Good God, man.” It sounds fucking suicidal. I don’t people to think, “Greg‘s gonna jump off a bridge” anytime soon. At the time, I was going through a lot of panic attacks and things from my subconscious that were repressed, childhood type things, were starting to come out. I just needed a release.”

He also talked about the state of his mind while writing the book:

“The end of Dillinger was this black hole that I didn’t know what was going to be on the other side of, and that causes a lot of anxiety. Especially as a singer, a lot of your identity is as the mascot of this band. That fuses to your identity. So when you’re marching to the unknown and know “this is going to dissolve,” you start to realize how much of yourself has fused with that and become the sort of bundle over the last 17 years.

Then you’re like, “Well, what happened to the person before this is what happened and do I have enough of another person outside of this to withstand losing this massive identity?” The singer gets it the worst because they’re the face of the band.

I think that it was a combination of a lot of other things that were happening behind the scenes that were causing me to kind of reevaluate my whole idea of what I thought caused my trajectory in life. Just a lot of shit was happening that was pinpointing me having a lot of anxiety and pretty much endless panic attacks.

The bus accident came at the height of that. When I was already at my worst, like, I was already in really bad shape on that particular tour and I was not in a good place … The bus accident came when I was in the peak of not being in a good place, and it just wrecked me beyond what normally would wreck someone if they were asleep and got hit by a fucking tractor trailer. [Laughs] Which is bad enough.

When you’re having panic attacks a lot, it’s coming out of nowhere and part of what you’re doing is trying to figure out where it’s all coming from, but it’s still hitting you from out of nowhere. You’re in this feeling at all times that you’re not safe. You’re getting blindsided by this energy torpedo.

The bus accident was kind of a physical torpedo that happened while I was already feeling that way, and it just made my whole life feel surreal in a way that I was not used to. And not surreal in a good way, like, “I can’t believe this is happening — the band is kicking ass and this is crazy!” or “I can’t believe we’re on tour with this band!” Those surrealities are positive, but this was like when you’re in a dream with this person you love and that person fucking turns into a monster and blows apart, then all of the sudden it’s horrifying? That’s where I felt at all times.

After that, there were a lot of things that just got worse. I came home and ended up getting on all these anti-anxiety medications and became addicted to them, then I withdrew from them, and it was just getting worse and worse and worse. A lot of when I read this [book], a lot is just like, “Fuck, man.” What a weird place I was in, and like I said, I don’t feel like that at all now.

The title even, before I knew what it was going to mean, now it means something different to me. If you can separate the dawn, literally, and draw a line in the sand between dark and light, or the beginning of a positive time period from the dark night of the soul.

[The title] just came out of me. Now I’m like, “Oh wow, that works out sometimes,” you know, like with ‘Dissociation‘, it was the same way. It didn’t start as Dillinger breaking up, but then we made it and suddenly Dillinger‘s breaking up, so suddenly the title makes a lot more sense. It’s really serendipitous things that I guess kind of make me feel like I’m tapped into what I need to be tapped into.”

He also opened up about the “self-medication” that he was using to face his demons:

“In the past there were things that I really enjoyed that were probably not healthy for me that I dove into wholeheartedly as anything else. There was a period of time where I was really alarmingly self-destructive. I was just like, “Whatever, fuck it. Who cares? I can withstand anything. I don’t give a shit.”

And I didn’t think about why I was doing it. I thought about the fact that I enjoyed doing it. The more reckless I was offstage, the more genuinely reckless I felt onstage. Then obviously with Dillinger, you get rewarded for that, but I had a hard time turning it off.

It wasn’t a performance for me, and it wasn’t something I knew how to turn off. It wasn’t like, “I have this part of me that I need to access and I can safely express it onstage and then I’m going to turn it off.” I would just keep going. And you gravitate toward people who enable that — you start developing a lot of friends who are into that, and the next thing you know you’re doing drugs and drinking and partying and fucking, you know, being out of control but not noticing the signs around you that it might not be healthy.

You’re not noticing the signs around you that it might not be healthy, and you’re not believing that there’s going to be any consequence to it. Whether it’s in your life emotionally or through your neurotransmitters or anything like that … Now that I’ve been through it, I understand that there’s a consequence to these kinds of things just like there’s a consequence to anything.

So what I was using this for, because I had all of this anxiety at the time and I hadn’t been to — and I hate talking about therapy — I hadn’t been to any therapy. I hadn’t had any sort of intense self-realizations yet regarding my life. I was just living like a fucking animal. All id, all instinct. I had a romanticization of that, like I thought it was just part of being an artist and I just believed that I didn’t have to give a shit about motive.

I was using drugs and alcohol and sex as basically anxiety release and self-medication without really knowing it. There were multiple times where I was pretty close to, uh … I had a few, like, overdoses. Whatever. I’ll say what they are. That’s when it first started becoming a lot. There were alarming signs and I was like, “Oh shit.” I’m suddenly aware that I’m mortal and something can go wrong.

But when that’s not happening, you’re in such a state of fucking bliss, and you’re in a state of relief from these things that are bothering you or driving you that you don’t care. You’re just fucking lying on the floor, blissed the fuck out, and you might actually be fucking close to death. You’re with someone or other people that equally as fucked up and you all look like fucking cartoons or zombies at this point, and you don’t even know.”

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Greg Puciato Opens Up About The Mental Health Issues He Suffered During The Dillinger Escape Plan’s Final Tour

During a recent interview with Revolver, Greg Puciato opened up about the mental health issues he suffered during The Dillinger Escape Plan’s final tour. The frontman was struggling with a number of problems including anxiety, panic attacks, and hypochondria.

Puciato said the following:

“I was not in the right mindset to be playing shows when we did the last Dillinger tour. I was having a lot of anxiety, panic attacks, hypochondria — all these weird things that I’ve never experienced before. The band was ending and then things just kept happening. I didn’t even think we were gonna get through it.”

He went on to say the panic attacks seemed to surface after the band’s bus accident:

“I tore a quadriceps. See that? [Points to a bump on his leg] I’ve got a bump in my leg that’s like another kneecap. That’s my muscle torn and rolled up. I waited too long to have it fixed, because it basically needs to be sewn back to your kneecap right away. If 72 hours go by, they need to re-tear it and pull it back down.

By the time I got home from Poland, I didn’t want to have surgery right away. I was having all these anxiety attacks and I wanted to be left alone. I got home from the bus accident and was like a leaf in the wind. I got prescribed Lexapro and Xanax because of the level of panic and anxiety.”

Aside from that, Puciato also opened up about Chris Cornell’s death:

“We went out with Soundgarden and things were going well. Then we had like three days off in the middle of nowhere because we were switching off shows with The Pretty Reckless, so I flew home. I went straight to some bar downtown, grabbed a drink and then got a text from a buddy of mine that said, “Cornell?”

It made me think something had happened, but then I was like, “Couldn’t be — I saw that guy yesterday.” So I asked the bartender, “Did something happen to Chris Cornell?” And he goes, “Who’s that?” So I immediately felt old. [Laughs] But I looked him up on my phone and he came up dead.

I went to [L.A. nightclub] the Lash and got more wasted than I got the night of the bus accident, which was more wasted than I had gotten in a long time. I woke up the next morning and I had gotten so fucked up that I couldn’t remember if everything that had happened was real. I went downstairs and turned on MTV Classic.

“Burden In My Hand” was on, so I just sat down and started crying. It was the weight of everything — the band ending, the record, plus the outlook for people with mental illness obviously being fucking terrible, seeing as how a guy who seemingly has it all had to hit eject by himself in a fucking hotel room in Detroit. I just had this feeling of like, “We need to get off this ride.” Everything felt symbolic at that point.”

He also added:

“It’s horrible. He was an addict. He went through it, you know? But I think it’s incorrect when people say addiction is a disease. I think it’s a symptom of trying to cope with something else. Here’s this guy with a beautiful family; he has his band back together, he has a solo career on the side, he looks great, he sounds great — he went through some shit and came out on the other side.

I looked at him on that tour and thought he’d made it over the hump, you know? But then that happened and you realize nothing is as it seems, and this is gonna end poorly for all of us. We’re all gonna be miserable forever or fighting something forever until it gets the best of us. That’s what shook me — not the loss of the rest of the Soundgarden shows.”

The Dillinger Escape Plan’s “Calculating Infinity,“ “Miss Machine,“ & “Ire Works“ To Receive New Limited Edition Vinyl Pressings

The Dillinger Escape Plan’s “Calculating Infinity,“ “Miss Machine,“ and “Ire Works“ are set to receive new limited edition vinyl pressings on November 2. They will be limited to 300 copies and can be pre-ordered via Newbury Comics.

[via The PRP]

Ben Weinman Reflects On The Dillinger Escape Plan Following The Band’s End

The Dillinger Escape Plan came to an end following three farewell shows at Terminal 5 in New York City, NY in December 2017. Now that the band is officially gone, guitarist Ben Weinman has taken some time to reflect on his time in the group. You can read what he had to say in the below Instagram post:

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The amygdala is a tiny, almond shaped structure deep inside the emotional part of your brain. It is visceral and autonomous Nature gave it to us for survival in a time when well thought out decisions would often have deadly consequences. Playing in @dillingerescapeplan would often put me in an extended state of fight or flight which enabled me to react almost exclusively on emotional impulse. The speed and intensity of our music and live shows were a catalyst for pure free expession with very little opportunity to reflect on my other daily stresses or even feel pain or fear. Thanks to all the people out there who contributed to allowing me this periodic meditation for the past 20 years. I will certainly miss this. Photo: @steveoshoots

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Watch Footage From The Dillinger Escape Plan’s Final Show

Last night (December 29), The Dillinger Escape Plan said farewell with one final show at Terminal 5 in New York, NY. You can check out some footage from the concert and the setlist below:

Setlist:

“Proceed With Caution”
“Limerent Death”
“Panasonic Youth”
“Milk Lizard”
“Baby’s First Coffin”
“Dead As History”
“Surrogate”
“Happiness Is A Smile”
“One Of Us Is The Killer”
“Nothing To Forget”
“Low Feels Blvd”
“Mouth Of Ghosts”
“Unretrofied”
“Sandbox Magician” (with Dimitri Minakakis)
“When I Lost My Bet”
“Sunshine The Werewolf”

Encore:

“Farewell, Mona Lisa”
“43% Burnt”
“Dissociation” (with Seven Suns & original The Dillinger Escape Plan bassist Adam Doll)

[via The PRP]

Watch The Dillinger Escape Plan Perform With Ex-Singer Dimitri Minakakis At The Second Of Three Farewell Shows

Last night (December 28), The Dillinger Escape Plan played their second of three farewell shows at Terminal 5 in New York, NY. This set featured a special appearance by ex-vocalist Dimitri Minakakis, who took the stage to perform some of the band’s earlier material. Check out some footage from the concert below:

If you missed it, you can see footage of the band performing with Mike Patton (Faith No More) and their ex-guitarist Brian Benoit during their December 27 show at Terminal 5 HERE. The group’s last ever show will take place at the same venue tonight (December 29).

[via The PRP]

Watch The Dillinger Escape Plan Perform With Mike Patton (Faith No More) At The First Of Three Farewell Shows

Last night (December 27), The Dillinger Escape Plan took the stage at Terminal 5 in New York, NY for their first of three farewell shows. This particular set featured a special appearance by Faith No More’s Mike Patton who performed tracks from the band’s “Irony Is A Dead Scene” EP and more. Former guitarist Brian Benoit also rejoined the group onstage as well. Check out some footage from the concert below:

The band will return to Terminal 5 for two final shows tonight (December 28) and tomorrow (December 29).

[via The PRP]